Thursday, December 20, 2012

Not Again!

It's happening again. last time it happened I made a huge change in my career just like that. I really don't know what gonna happen now. Its scary.

The feeling that you are really not attached to reality. I feel like an outsider looking in my life...again.
Damn...
How often it suppose to happen anyway, is there rule?

Its like a tsunami of emotions flooded into me. Overwhelming and I can't handle this emotions anymore. My mood's haywire. I am happy, sad, depressed, calm, lost, focused, overjoyed all at the same time.

Maybe this is how crazy person feels all the time. That would make it so much more easier, if I got diagnosed as clinically mentally unstable. I wish.

But changes coming. For sure. What I am gonna do when it come? What will I choose? Am I selfish? or too selfless? Will I make the right decision?

Change is coming my way and I am gonna welcome it with open arms.