Don't look back...

I am sitting down here on my night shift drafting my resignation email... again.
It has only been 9 months I have been here. I like it here, normal office politics as anywhere else, work is alright, I would say its OK.

But I got a better opportunity. I need to think about future, the family, with baby on the way, I should be able to provide for them.

And with this new job, I don't have to do shift, except rotated weekend on-calls among team members, I am ok with that.

I am cracking my head now, how the hell I am gonna break this news to my boss, I feel so divided, even though I have pretty much made up my mind.

I feel guilty as hell to resign from this company, my team mates has been wonderful, they have trained me great deal. But I have to look forward........

I believe all this happening for a reason, we have to make certain sacrifice in life to move forward.

Kereta oh kereta...

Petang tadi dengan confidentnye aku start kereta, konon nak gi jumpa dentist, sebab sakit gigi.

Enjin tak start, semput.... bateri flat. Aku terlupa nak off lampu dalam kereta tu. So obviously bateri flat ler.

Berikut belanja kereta aku untuk bulan in sahaja.

• Air Cond rosak, terpaksa ganti compressor (recon unit jer tu)
• Empat-empat tayar botak, memang boleh terasa kereta drift semacam waktu hujan, so terpaksa tukar empat empat.
• Buat alignment lagi tu.
• Service kereta.
• And sekarang, tukar bateri baru.
• Mekanik cakap (lepas tukar bateri) keret aku kene tukar mounting, sebab vibration kuat.
  

Memang istilah 'kering' untuk bulan ni is an understatement.

Sejak aku habis bayar kereta ni, aku perasa kereta aku ni bertambah manja, macam longing for more attention from me... why.....................

Wahai kereta, jangan le buat hal, aku takkan jual ko lagi, please serve me for at least another 5 year ok? Deal?

There is a bun in the oven !!!

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Ya Rabbil Alamin...

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!

There are no words can describe my feeling, I feel truly blessed. I feel it is almost like a miracle.
Thanks for all who have prayed hard for me and my wife.

Never in my life I was so happy to see two tiny red lines appearing on a piece of paper. That almost drove me to tears, that was the big news I was talking about in this post. Wanted to wait for while before posting this entry.

Quite frankly, I have been dreaming about this and how would I write this entry. Now that I am writing it, the words does not seem to flow naturally. I am trembling... of Joy.

I have been hoping for so long for this, now that it really happened, I really need to reassure myself that this isn't just a dream (believe me, I had plenty of such dream that I wouldn't want to wake up). But now slowly I have had accepted it, gladly that is, I have beginning to digest this news and start making necessary preparation.

And I never loved my wife this much in my whole life...!!! I love you dear!!! (Muahhhh Muahhhh big kiss for you) Ok ok.... I know, you guys are getting sick of this Public (or rather, virtual) Display of Affection, but I don't care! :)

Obviously there going to be lot I need to write about.... more coming soon...

Life is weird. (in a good way)

Life is weird.

Sometimes opportunities just come knocking at your door when you least expected!
And sometimes try as you might, you just could not find that big break you looking for your entire life!


I feel truly happy and blessed with this opportunity. Is this the big break I have been waiting for my entire life?

Anything happened and that will happen is in God's hand.

Allah indeed is a great planner.

My first Lotus

Err..... well not mine, my wife's, so in a way it is mine also la kan.

We need a second car, my shift is so weird and ever-changing, making it impossible for me to send and fetch my wife everyday. We got the Apple-Green, because it look cute, just like my wife. He he.

Since wife is working in Proton, we got a staff price. This car is cool, I like the AMT function, we can choose either manual or auto function while driving.

Sawi vs Savvy

Quiz: Spot 5 differences between the pictures above (hint:look carefully)

Tidings............

I woke up this morning,
I woke up this morning with a news
A news that has the power,
The power to change,
Then I knew,
I knew that my life would never be the same again.

Introducing my workout partner.....

Philips SA1115/97 MP3 Player. Nothing fancy like Ipod (sigh) but it does the job. Been wanting a MP3 player for a longest time I remembered, but only I afford to get one. This one is quite reasonable, 1 GB storage, with FM tuner and recorder, bought it at Cerrefour for RM139.

It really help me to isolate from my surrounding in the gym and focus more on my workout when you ears are plugged with music. And I notice I can work out longer and did not realise time flies as I enjoy the music.

It really helps, if you are planning to work out, I really recommend to do it while your MP3 is blasting with Metallica.

I am back........

Me at the gym...

I am back! Big time... in the GYM that is.
Been going very consistently to the one in Cyberjaya and FF Subang Jaya. FF is better off course, but I need the Cyberjaya GYM as well, for emergencies.

I have lost about 1 kg so far. But I have to make sure that I am loosing fat, and not the muscle mass. Need really to take care of my food intake, have to make sure my protein intake is sufficient and cut don on Carbs.

Hard to get healthy stuff at the stalls, so I am packing my own food now, tuna or smoked chicken sandwich (whole grain bread) Melampau tak?

Anyway my target is reduce my love handle in one month, then after that I will be thinking about bulking up again. For now , I am emphasizing on cardio and off course not neglecting weight training as well.

A gal from GNC just called me, saying that since I am a GNC member, I am getting birthday discount for month of May for 35% !!! And my protein shake has just conveniently ran out yesterday, perfect timing or what!

Somehow, when I have been working out constantly, I feel great, energy level is up and I don't have the mood swing that sometime I have. Its a good thing I found that working out is enjoyable. Thanks God for that!

GYM review time!... again

Well, not exactly a gym, it is the Cyberjaya Community Centre. I think the centre was opened few months back. Ironically, for a Community Centre located right in the MSC, this centre has no website, I couldn't find anything about this in the web.
As my post yesterday, I went to the gym there during lunch and again today. So it is pretty obvious that I am satisfied with it.
The gym is just a moderate room, with about 5 all in weight machines, few treadmills and few (very few) dumbbells and barbells. Overall it a decent gym.

Lunch time crowd there was non-existence. I was the only one there! I had the gym all for my self. The good thing about this is I can switch off the air cond, as I hate a really ice cold gym. I had a great workout!

There is hot shower and locker provided.

So overall I am satisfied satisfied satisfied....

Maybe I should keep this discovery all to myself, or else the place will be so crowded during lunch or on other thoughts, are there anyone out there insane enough to waste their lunch out for a workout?

Smeagol hates that fat Hobbit!

I am so fat now. I must do something about my weight. It has been really difficult lately to hit gym with my current shift. But something need to be done.
I checked out the Cyberjaya Community Centre. Quite good facility there and they have a reasonable gym there, RM5/entry, quite cheap huh!
Planning to go during lunch, starting today.

I need to blog this or else I will drag myself to that gym.

Wish me luck!!!


At least this will give me a peace of mind from work/politics during lunch time!

Been there before.........

I hate this, I have been at this moment before, it is like deja vu 'all over again'.
I am here just to do my work, get my salary and go home and live a life. Nothing else.
I don't come to office to socialize, to gossips nor it is my hobby! I come here to make a living, to make ends meet, I have a goal, it is for money, it is simple as that.

I really don't want to be involved in the dirty world of office politics, it sounds impossible, to avoid it, I agree. Most likely I will be labeled as 'unfriendly' or 'tukang kipas' or whatever other label. But I really don't give a damn. I am tired, tired of being a victim, I just can't take this anymore.

Thats it, I really going to ignore my surroundings now. Playing dumb. Come to office, work and go home. Simple as that

I have a life ok!

Spending all your money money.....

Extra expenses this month:

• car insurance
• road tax
• Security service payment ( for 3 months, one shot !!!)
• Family vacation, everybody had to chip in
  
• Driving license expired, have to renew ( I am illegal driver now)

The only silver lining is that (bright blinding silver lining that is) this month would be my last car payment! Yahooooo.....................

Tribute to Aathi.

Every village has one, there is no village without it, a village idiot. In my case, and to the people of Chamang, Bentong, it would be Aathi.

Everyone knows her, a thin small Indian lady, she is famous, everyone knows her name, a very well known household name in Chamang. Kids make fun of her when she walks by, and she is half mental but not a total nut case. She is married, with one son, her husband is working as guard/mandor somewhere.

I remember making fun of her when I was young, she comes to my father's shop for groceries (where we provide 555 book credit card service). She use to beg my dad to give hutang to buy sirih and pinang and while she is in shop, I use to shoot her with kacang hijau in a straw and she complaints to my mum about this all the time. I buat dunne jer.

And when grew up a bit she complained to my mum that I am trying to hit on her (mengorat) ha ha what a joke. My mum just laughed it away.

After sometime, her son grew up and left the family, leaving her and her hubby alone, she worked with my mum as maid for a while, the she stopped (or fired, don't know which one).

She alway very energetic, no one would have believed she is in her fifties. She always seen walking hastily in Chamang, where she goes and what she does, no one knew. She like to collect flowering plant all over Chamang to be planted in her house.

Recently I had a news that he she passes away in Bentong hospital. She had cancer. I felt sad. Sad thinking of her life. Only after she passed away, I was thinking why was I so mean to her? Why I treated her badly? Why did I just followed the trend and made fun of the village idiot? Would it been too hard for me to treat her a bit better? This really got me thinking.

Now that Chamang has lost one, I am hoping that I would treat the next in line for the village idiot with little more respect.

Empty.............

It has been a while since I have updated. I just seems to lose all my passion to blog. Maybe my life is becoming more boring (more than its already been I mean), or I have become boring, or I have become lazy.

(after 10 min pause)

See! I can't come up with anything to blog! My mind is empty! I have become a zombie.

(another 5 min)

Still thinking.........

Nope, nada.... nothing coming up.......

So...

No blog entry for today..... thanks for your patient!

bye!

Dentist from hell!

Whenever I go to do my fillings, she will say, I will put on a temporary filling first, and after the we will 'monitor' how your teeth feels, than you come back here to do a permanent fillings. And this temporary fillings will cost about RM40. It will last one week the most, after that I need to go to see her again for permanent fillings. And that will easily cost me RM50, so to do one cavity fillings, I am spending around RM100 with this dentist! What a blood sucking leech!

And at the most recent visit, she told me, if the amalgam keeps on coming off, we might need to do a 'crowning' for both of your teeth and each crown will cost RM600!!!

That's it, I had enough, never ever I will return to this evil witch doctor, after getting my yet another temporary fillings, I left that damn clinic for good.

When to a dentist in Shah Alam. She was really nice, explain to me what the problem with my teeth, saying that the amalgam might not hold it, because my tooth (or whatever left of it) can support it (only 3 walls of my tooth left)

I was really pleased with the result. It really look neat, and it doesn't even looked like it has been filled. And she was using all the modern equipment unlike the ancient tools used in that witch doctors clinic.

Well, anyone who is interested in dental work (unless you or you wife is a dentist and has free dental treatment for life) drop by at hmmmmm should I advertise?

Save the cheerleader !!!

I slept at about 4 am last night, I thought I had the self control, but I have failed, try as I might to overcome the temptation, I have fallen to the dark side. My wife will be furious, she would be angry!!! But what can I do? I am just a man, with normal need and urges every guys has. I am ashamed of myself.
You see, I am a huge fan of HEROES. And I am well aware that I told that busy woman, that I will watch it old fashion way (on tv), and I am not going to watch the the whole downloaded episode in one go. But when my colleague in office dangled in front of me the DVD of the whole series up to Episode 18, I was just couldn't restrain myself from grabbing the DVD from him and making a copy.
And last nite, I told myself, ok just let watch one Episode and go to bed after that, but one after one episode, I just couldn't stop! They just end every episode at the most suspend part! Somehow I manage to force myself to stop at 4am at episode12. Woke up next morning at 11am, thank God it was my off day. Watched couple of episode, then it was time for Fri prayer, My keimanan really tested , but I managed to go to mosque, came back and sit in front of the laptop till episode 18. Now that I have watched episode 18, I am going crazy and my life will never be the same again (what an exaggeration !!!). I have become a fanatic.
My wife is worried whenever I talked about the cheerleader.

Please someone out there, we have world to save (or New York city more precisely) Who is with me?

Ada Apa Pada Nama?

Aku setuju sangat dengan Majlis Fatwa Negeri Perlis, orang yang masuk Islam tak wajib menukar nama, dan yang paling best tak payah berbin atau berbintikan Abdullah. Memang dari dulu aku pelik, kenapa kene berbinkan Abdullah (macam anak luar nikah). Kekadang kat Malaysia ni ntah apa2 rule yang kita follow, sampai kalau selidik balik, kita pun tak tau tok guru kat kampung mana yang keluarkan fatwa ni. Kalau kat negara lain, India misalnya tak payah nak tukar-tukar nama ni. Kalau kat negara China, orang Islam dibenarkan jugak simpan nama asal mereka. Asalkan makna nama tu baik walaupun dalam bahasa apa pun, kita boleh simpan nama tu. Tapi kalau nama tu nama dewa-dewa agama lain atau seangkatan dengannya wajible kita tukar.

Aku harap majlis agama negeri-negeri lain pun akan ikut majlis Fatwa negeri Perlis ni.

Harap Majlis Fatwa Negeri Perlis kaji kes kat bawah ni dan buat perubahan agar Pejabat Agama lebih "Saudara Baru Friendly". Bak Kata Panjang (I quote from his email) "layan orang yg nak masuk Islam macam nak masuk jel, yang taunya, kejenya nak mengendap orang beromen. itu sampai bergaduh² dengan mufti. nak jugak² mengendap......" He he he

p/s: Aku selalu terfikir, kalau le aku dilahirkan dalam keluarga kafir dulu, akan terbukakah hati aku untuk masuk Islam, ataupun aku ni hanya Islam sebab dilahirkan dalam keluarga Islam. Aku bersyukur dilahirkan dalam keluarha Islam, Amin.

Layanan buruk pejabat agama terhadap saudara baru didedah

Salmiyah Harun Wed | Feb 14, 07 | 09:50:37 AM

KUALA LUMPUR, 14 feb (Hrkh) - Malaysia merupakan negara yang paling susah untuk orang bukan Islam memeluk Islam biarpun ia diiktiraf sebagai negara Islam, demikian dakwa seorang pendakwah bebas Muhd Fitri Abdullah. Beliau berasal dari keluarga berketurunan India, merupakan bekas penganut Hindu mendedahkan, sikap sesetengah pegawai jabatan agama negeri tidak menunjukkan akhlak yang baik. Berdasarkan pengalamannya, beliau pernah ke pejabat agama untuk memeluk Islam, tetapi dilayan secara kasar oleh pegawai yang bertugas. Bagaimanapun beliau enggan menamakan jabatan agama negeri berkenaan. Justeru, kesan daripada layanan pegawai tersebut beliau telah menangguhkan niat untuk memeluk Islam selama setahun. "Ada bawa gambar passport empat keping! Ada bawa dua orang saksi!," ulang beliau memetik kata-kata yang pernah dikeluarkan oleh pegawai berkenaan semasa ke jabatan agama suatu ketika dahulu. Beliau memeluk Islam sejak 13 tahun lalu, membidas sikap pegawai terbabit yang kasar seolah-olah tidak mahu mengislamkan beliau. "Jika ini sikap pegawai kita, macam mana nak tarik orang bukan Islam untuk memeluk Islam, malah sikap ini juga secara tidak langsung menghalang niat suci kita," katanya ketika menyampaikan tazkirah bulanan di Unit Editorial Harakah hari ini. Beliau mencadangkan agar kaedah pengislaman untuk bakal saudara baru diadakan di masjid melalui imam dan disaksikan oleh orang ramai sebagaimana yang pernah dialaminya. "Kalau buat di pejabat agama tidak ada apa-apa, kalau di masjid suasana ukhwah Islam itu wujud dengan sokongan daripada jemaah, dan dengan cara ini orang berkenaan akan sentiasa ingat,"katanya. Menceritakan pengalamannya, Muhd Fitri juga kesal, walaupun ketika beliau mula menunjukkan minat untuk memeluk Islam, tidak ada orang Melayu yang sedia berdakwah kepada beliau dan keluarganya. Katanya, beliau dan keluarga pernah tinggal di kawasan majoritinya orang Melayu tetapi mereka tidak pernah datang untuk berdakwah kepada mereka. Sehubungan itu katanya, umat Islam melakukan usaha berterusan untuk mendekati golongan bukan Islam, menarik mereka untuk menerima Islam sesuai dengan sabda Rasulullah s.a.w yang menggesa umatnya menyampaikan (dakwah) walaupun dengan satu ayat. - mr

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Brad Pitt pun pakai brand ni! Tak percaya, tengok balik citer Ocean 12, memang Character Brad Pitt pakai brand ni. Sedangkan Brad Pitt pun pakai Selsun Blue, apatah lagi kita, Average Joe? Kita kene ikut langkah Brad Pitt jugak, so mungkin kita jugak akan dapat Angelina Jolie! he he.

p/s: Terima Kasih pada rakan-rakan bloggers yang rekomenkan brand ni. (from this entry)

Waiting for a point where I will exhale........

I really envy those who can really enjoy their live. I mean having real fun, where everyday is a last. They are happy at work, happy at home, there are happy anywhere they are. No matter what, they will have good time.
I am a worrier. I can't feel happiness, it is genetic, it is kinda disorder, I have looked in the web, it is a medical condition that prevent people from ever feel happiness, some kinda psychological disorder. I am admitting it now. I am not a happy person, despite all my effort to appear happy and joyful, I really can't grasp that concept.
I tried to find root cause for this, but I am unable to pinpoint any. I thought it might be financial, career, family or health, but I can't be sure. If i have one thing than it is another, nope I have no idea what going on.
But, when I see happy people, I feel happy for them, at least there can feel it, so I am happy for them. I tried to imagine how is their life all about.
I think I need professional help.

Hebat sangat ke dapat makan malam dengan Anuar Zain tu?

Since January, I am working from Fri-Mon, from 1000-2100 (hopefully until February only). On weekends, I will be just working from home, and sometimes, even on Fri or Mon, I will be working from home if I don't feel going to office. The hall is my office, I'll be watching TV for 10 hours while working (or working while watching TV). I'm kinda become a couch potato and I have become very fond of watching TV lately for some reason*.

Below are my discoveries about my TV watching habits.

1. I can watch "Friends" for hundredth thousand time and I still wouldn't get bored and would still find it funny.
2. Heroes is excellent!
3. I hate watching that "Raja Lawak" advertisements.
4. They repeat the Nana Tanjung theme song so often, that I find myself singing it unconsciously.
5. I subscribed to the movie package and sometimes I thing they show absolutey rubbish, especially in the evening.
6. At certain hour (especially from 2-5pm) there is absolutely nothing to watch!.
7. I really hate it when, we are nicely surfing the channel and suddenly you accidentally hit the "Box Office" Channel (which I don't subscribe) and you need to wait for the damn thing to load before you can hit other channel.
8. I really don't see anything interesting in the "Table for Three", but my wife seem addicted to it.
9. When they going to show the new season of "Lost"?
10. I think I had enough of that "Makan malam bersama Anuar Zain" thingy, it is really getting to my nerves.
11. Ever since Astro migrated to Measat 3, I am unable to get certain channel, called Astro, and the very blur help desk said "Everything seems fine, I think the problem is at you end sir, we can send a technician over, that will cost RM50". Bull Shit isnt it? I told him why the hell i should pay, you upgraded your satellite, and now I need to pay RM 50?!!!
12. I find British comedy on Channel 26 is absolutely boring but somehow I still watch it.
13. I really don't like watching Amazing Race or Fear Factor that much.
14. I find it that I really like to watch those really slow and boring movies compared to action packed ones.
15. I can watch Charlie's Angels for millionth time and still get excited about it.
16. Unheard of before B-Class movies sometime can be interesting in a strange ways.