New obsession: it's a good problem to have!

I am staring at my laptop, and it all look so strange to me. It is despressing, it make me scared, of my future, my sanity, i am not sure i can keep this up.

I cant live in fear, i always thought a true freedom in live is to live without fear. And for now i think it is the fear that becoming a driving force for me.
This fire now burning in my heart, I wont let it die, till my dream is achieve, if this is my dream i might take the risk to achieve it, sacrifices must be made, and I am not going to sit on my ass and whine!