Great Expectations..........

A lot going through my mind. A lot of 'what if' questions. And then I'll start fantasizing that 'if' I have done that my life would have been like this or 'if' I can have this I could do that, and so on.

Sometimes I fantasize so detailed, that I actually felt the satisfaction of living that fantasy life. In the fact that I have an abundant time to do so doesn't help me with my problem.

Am I 'Mat Jenin', who lost out opportunity in life, while dreaming of the future that might or might not materialize?


Where is the 'big break' that everybody's talking about?

Ntah le.. Tension....

Yet another year...........

Yesterday was my birthday, yes.... but I don't try make make big fuss about it after I hit my 30s..... It is scary you know, to be in 30s, I don't know why, I am just feeling like there a lot more to accomplished in life and I am already in 30s.. sigh.... anyway, this entry is not about me pondering about meaning of life or my achievement in life (or lack of it), its about what my wife did for my birthday.

We agreed that, there would be no gift for my birthday this year since, my wife have partially chipped in for my new handphone. So nothing was planned, at most she said we go makan at Big Plate. OK la, fair enough, since I did nothing for my wife birthday this year cos we were busy moving to the new house that time.

She fetched me from work as usual yesterday, she said once reaching the house, go straight up to the room and get ready, we are going to Big Plate and DO NOT come down until I call you. So I just set in the room, prayed, dressed up nicely since we were going out and all. At about 745, my wife came up, she also got dressed, and then she blind folded me!!!! (How kinky.... keh keh keh)

She guided me down and sit me on the dinner table and untie my blindfold, And there in front of me was this....

this....

and this...........

A complete course of candle lite dinner! How romantic!

Lamb Chop

Coleslaw

Mashed Potato

Veggies

Sparkling Grape Juice

and Nachos as appetizer....

I was puzzled how she managed to cook all this in half an hour time?!!!!

Then my wife confessed that, she took half day yesterday, cooked and fetch me from work as usual......

I was speechless, this was the best surprised I had for my birthday ever...

Thanks so much dear, I really enjoyed the dinner!!!!

Thank you......Thank you......Thank you !!!!!!!!!

Syukur...........

Tak tau kenapa, kalau aku tengok orang tengah makan, especially, orang-orang kita ni tengah makan nasi, hati aku rasa sayu, rasa kesihan, rasa macam nak tengok jer orang tu makan sampai habis.

Kita rush2 bangun pagi, stuck in jam, sampai ke ofis tergopoh gapah, kena marah ngan boss, tension kerja, kekadang stress kerja bawak balik ke rumah sampai laki bini gaduh, habis tu rasa risau, kecewa sebab tak dapat promotion, jadi mangsa politik ofis (or join-in in gossipping) - Semua bende ni kita terpkasa buat untuk......... dapatkan sesuap nasi yang kita makan tu la.

So, from now on, masa makan, aku x nak rush-rush, duduk elok-elok, makan sepuasnye, susah payah kita kalau makan pun tak sempat apa guna kita kerja?

Its just Amazing isn't it?

Even we have lost hope and think that we messed our with oh life, big time!
and even when we think there is no more hope and that impossible life will take a turn to favor us,
and even when we think all the world has gone mad and people around us hate us,
and even when we think nothing left to fight for...

Our parents still sees us as they say us the day we were born, for them we are they baby, they shower us with endless love.....
They gave the simplest advice on most complicated problem in our life and IT MAKES SENSE, and IT IS THE PERFECT SOLUTION.

It is just amazing, maybe because I am not yet a dad, I am unable to imagine the love of a parents for their child, but seeing the love my parents give to all their children, I think there no love in the world greater than this.................

The problem is..............

The problem with me is, I wait for the instruction. I wait and I wait.

No... I am not lazy nor that I lack initiative, in fact I am dying to act on my instinct and logic, there is just too many things in my head that I want to execute, but I wait.

Once, I did that, I acted on my logic and instinct and took matters in my own hand. And what I got in the return? my ex-boss (read bitch) called me that I am 'big headed' and taking her job as the boss, bla bla bla.

I have to find a middle ground.

Celebrity Sighting

I was surprised to see Shamser Sidhu in Bukit Damansara Mosque last Friday.

For those who have no idea who he is, he is the Host for the Fear Factor Malaysia and also main person in Celcom adverts on TV and billboards.

Why I was Surprised?

Well, hmmmm first of all I wasn't sure he was a muslim, of course with name like that he probably a muslim, but then again he might no be one....
I was reading the Men's Health Magazine (baca free kat kedai) there is some comments he made about his lifestyle that made me belief that he wasn't a muslim.

Well, I was sitting at the back (my spot!) in the mosque, and suddenly he walked passed me, we went 2-3 shaf infront of me and start Solat Sunat!

I told my wife (she is a big fan of him) this and she said, "tak sangka pulak Shamser Sidhu tu praying type, tu la lain kali jangan buruk sangka kat orang!"

Anyway it was my mistake to be prejudice about others, jahat sungguh aku ni, macam le aku ni alim sangat!

Anyway, back to the Men's Health interview, this guy do have a good bod, guess need to fine tune my workouts to get body like his in ........... hmmm let say 2-3 months?!!!!!

Impossible? One will never know.