Security in numbers?

I was never really part of a big group as log as I can remember. In primary school, I was much of a loaner. Had no best friend. but loved to go to school and teachers loved me. Come to think of it I had pretty lousy childhood. I has only my friend outside school, we use to travel around the neighborhood, exploring every longkang, bushes and other dirty places. But no group! No football or any other group sports.

In Secondary, I had very few, but VERY close friends, which I still keep in touch till today; again I was not part of that big group. But then again, I guess, I was in the that popular group, whether I liked it or not. I was the head prefect for heaven sake ( My wife still cant believe it and always make fun of me, "head prefect apa yg perangai macam ni?" She will say if I tell her the stories of my mischievous self in school)

And in college, I was never part of the popular mainstream guys. I call them 'mainstream' because, they consider they represent the opinion of the whole batch, but in fact they are not. Mainstreams guys are normally popular among girls. Most probably had girlfriend from the 1^st year in colleague, and rather active in all college activity (most probably to impress the gals)

Well again, I belonged to the 'minority'. We had our own weird stuffs to do, we never gave rat's ass about the mainstream guys' activity, and we find it boring. Most of us, didn't have any gf till toward the final year. We were comfortable talking in our own language (nerdy sci-fi talk), live in different world (probably in even in a galaxy far... far.... away).

I never had this longing to belong to a large group of people. I just don't function well when I am in a crowd. I prefer small close knitted group. I never felt that I must belong to a group for security reason. It most probably due to my 'I don't give a damn what you think about me' and "you can judge me all you want, but it doesn't effect me in any way' attitude.

Even after I entered working life, it hadn't changed. I never bothered about that popular bunch at office. I just 'hi and bye' them when I meet them. But eventually, the friendship grows, without being forced. Hi and bye become more sincere.

Ntah le, maybe I am weird. Belonging to a group of people is great achievement for some but not for me. Maybe I am really comfortable on my own skin and had enough self confidence to stand on my own that I don't have the need to be in a large social group to function.

I don't see myself as anti-social, I just need time to let the friendship to grow. I don't force my self into a '"well established ecosystem", I let myself to adapt to the new habitat before becoming part of that ecosystem.

Over and out!

Perkara-perkara yang buat aku konpius pasal rakyat Malaysia.

1. Ex tunang Mawi (apa nama dia? Diana?) akan merakamkan album sempena Aidilfitri. Dah tak cukup artis ke kat Malaysia ni?
2. RTM, Astro tolong pulihkan hubungan Ina-Mawi malam ini. No Komen le, malas dah nak cakap apa2.
3. Aku baca dalam Warta Perdana, para ulama Malaysia meramalkan Dato' K and CT akan melangsungkan malam pertama malam khamis ni, sebab Dato K adalah orang yang kuat agama. Perlukah, kita speculate bende ni semua, walaupun hanya dalam tabloid?
4. Berlambak2 message dari Maxis suruh kita buang duit hantar ucapan tahniah SMS untuk CT! Buat apa? Nak kayakan lagi si Ananda Krishnan tu?
5. Semua hotel dan rumah tumpangan di Lipis penuh ditempah sempena majlis pernikahan CT.

 

Anyway, I am still proud to be Malaysian.

 

Selamat Merdeka to all.......

Entry orang boring takder kerja..........

Burung.

Sejak first day in CyberJaya, aku dah perasan. Memang banyak burung ni kat sini. Ntah kenapa.

Biasanya kalau banyak gagak,maksudnye, kawasan tu kotor, banyak sampah sarap.

Tapi Cyber ni aku tengok bersih jer.....

Tak tau kenapa banyak gagak kat sini.
Pelik tul lah.

Landscape.

Akhirnye aku dah start buat garden depan rumah aku tu. Sebelum masuk kerja Cyber ni aku ada cuti 4 hari.

So aku 'shopping' sakan kat Sungai Buluh, beli pokok bunga.

Konon nak buat Japanese conceptnye garden, ada pokok buluh dan sebagainye, tapi aku rasa bila dah siap nanti, Nampak macam konsep Bali lak.

Lantak le, asalkan cantik.

Jealous gak tengok Jiran aku tu, siap upah Landscapper untuk taman dia, siap dengan fountain, palm trees and so on. Loaded tul mamat tu, siap ada BMW lagi, padahal sebaya aku jer, belajar sesame kat Kolej Mara Banting dulu, camner depa boleh kaya and aku ni biasa2 jer?...... arghhh Alhamdulillah je la ngan apa yang aku ada sekarang ni....Buat tension jer fikir pasal duit ni.....

Kerja Baru.

Dah 3 minggu aku kat sini. Environment kat sini ok. Takder la aku nak komplen sangat. Aku takder team mate kat sini. Aku sorang jer buat backup untuk team ni kat Malaysia. The rest of the team kat US. Kira friendly gak orang2 US ni. Manager aku pun muda gile. Aku rasa lagi muda dari aku. Team mate ada yang dah tua sikit ada yang still muda2. Group email pun takder formal sangat. As long as got the message across, kira ok dah. Takder kena mengarang email panjang2, padahal simple matter jer (nak tunjuk kita ni rajin!) Benci aku baca email berpusing2 ni.

CT

Aku 'tertengok' acara pernikahan masa wife aku tengok rancangan ulangan hari tu. Aku tengok CT and keluarga dia nangis2. Rasa cian lak aku kutuk2 dia selama ni.

Harap dia bahagia ke anak cucu.

TM suck big time!!!!

I am really pissed off with TM (Net, point... what the f*&*ing different?).

I apply for a phone line months ago. Until now, there is no update and there is no follow-up.

 

At first, they said, no physical line from the DB to my house, so they arranged the contractor to come and fix it. And this was done 2 weeks ago. But now every time I called, they are clueless what's going on. They said my house phone line is not captured in the system. The helpdesk girl gave me the contractor phone line for me to follow up? WTF? Isn't that their problem? Why the hell I should liaise with their contractor? Is this how they do work? Why should I waste my hand phone bill calling the contractor, while they the one should follow up and update me the issue!!!!

 

It is unbelievable!!! If this were Maxis I'll be getting excellent customer service, they call, SMS on every update!

 

I am really disappointed with the service! It seems the only changed the physical appearance of the service (new bright orange uniform, building) but service still sucks.

 

Sorry.... I am really pissed off!

 

I am having online training with US next week onward, and just because I have no internet connection at home, I have drive all the way to CyberJaya middle of the night for the training!..... Arghhhhhhhhhhh

Royal Guards......

I am getting rather uncomfortable with the guards in this building. Not because they are so bad or irritating or such.

It is because they are so damn good!

Every morning, when I arrive to office, the guard in the main door at the lobby will open the door for me and say good morning (with smiley face), together with the army salute.

Then to the door to my office in 3^rd floor, same thing happen, I touch the access card to the reader, and they will open the door for me, salute and say good morning.

Ok fine, so far so good.

But, same thing happen whenever I go out of the office floor, to men's room, to lunch, every time they will wish, salute, smile and open the door.

I feel like I am troubling them so much, because I go to men's room too often (I drink a lot of plain water). It is like, man.... Imagine this is just the salute they're giving to me alone; imagine how many people working in this building?!!! Isn't it tiring?

These are non-local guards, all of them from Nepal (the Gurkhas). If it was a local guard, I guess, it would be a fat chance they will lift their finger to open the door or even giving a friendly nod!

P/s: this entry obviously has no motive or moral value we can learn........

They should be dressed like this, Emperor Palpatine's Royal Guard......

Somebody please stop this madness.............

DK, CT and TZ, has become quite a famous acronyms for Malaysians all of sudden. I know, there have been countless blogs entries either condemning the lavish wedding or the one really supporting the wedding.

I, off course, all against this stupid @#*&$# wedding! WTF?

I am too mad to compose a proper sentences and paragraph, so, here in point form.

1. Do they really need to call for a press conference EVERY time new rumors surfaces? Why the being so paranoid, that they want to deny all allegations?

2. Does the press really have to print their news in front-page? Does Malaysian intelligent level hit the rock bottom? There we are, early in the morning with cup of coffee, ready to sit down with newspaper, and there goes, right in the front-page, story about DK and CT, yuck! Spoil my whole day.

3. Does the cabinet really have to discuss this in Dewan Rakyat? Of course the Ministry of Women, Family and Community Development, has a point, why TV3 should telecast the wedding of a man who left his wife and children to marry a younger girl. To of all single mothers out there, whose the husbands left them for younger girl, please do something about this. Is this the example we want to set to our children? And please DO NOT CANCEL ANY OF OUR FAV SHOW JUST FOR THE WEDDING!!!!

4. Please do not bombard us about the every stupid detail of the wedding we DO NOT care. I don't care if you want to be paraded around KLCC in kereta lembu, or in beca or on the back of a camel. Please don't start closing all the main road around KL just for the wedding, there are 'real' people out there who need to beat the rush traffic hour to go to work. Please be considerate.

5. And please, for goodness sake, do not bring out the family argument about the actual amount of hantaran money in the press. It is embarrassing!

6. And I don't understand how some people can boost around saying that everything for the wedding is sponsored? Is that something to be proud of? The rest of us used our hard earned cash form saving for the wedding, it was more meaningful, even if the wedding was not that grand. Ni tak, siap buat statement who sponsored what, siap with the pricing lagi, if it was me, I would be really embarrassed!

7. My last point is, is that necessary to spend RM4m for wedding, just because you have the money (even more than half of it was sponsored) I mean, imagine what kind of charity can be done with RM4m:

· Help the poor
· Give scholarship for poor children
· Donate to orphanage.
· Help people in war strike nations.
· Help develop young entrepreneurs.
· And much more.......

The only acronym that bring smile to my smile lately is PCD, THEY ARE HOT!

Most satisfying haircut

It would be a rare occasion if I could drive home fully satisfied after each hair-cut session. Normally, I would be driving back cursing the barber. He cut too short, not even, didn't cut in the style I asked, too rough and such. Most of them will nod their head at the beginning when I describe the way my hair should be cut, but at the middle of the session, all hell will break loose.

But last night, the hair cut I had was PERFECT! It was just the way I wanted it. My favorite type is the square/box type. Since my hair is stubborn and wavy, there is not much variation can be done. Cutting close like the crew cut work best for me.

Even I have moved to Shah Alam 6 month ago, all this while I was going to the barber in SS3 PJ, the one I've frequenting for the past 4 yrs. This barber shop is ok, but they change the barber so often that you wont get the same haircut every time you go, and they chare between RM9-11. So since I am already a Shah Alam resident, it is time for me to join the S.Alam 'jemaah'.

Last night went to this shop, in Seks U9 (not so sure which section), Pusat Perdagangan Subang Permai, Shah Alam. A small Indian Shop. Nothing fancy, only two cutting chairs. I told him, I want the square cut. He nodded knowingly (I thought, here goes again, another disastrous bad hair day for the entire month of August). I sat down, prepared for the worse. Then he started. He really took his time; he was gentle and knows what he was doing. The end result was totally amazing!!! I loved it. This is the barber I am going to after this. PERIOD!

The cream on top of the cake is he gave this neck massage at the end, that really was relieving and the cherry on top was, it cost only RM8!

Unix

Can't believe that I need to learn UNIX.

UNIX and I mix well like onion and chocolates ice cream (to borrow Simon's quote from American Idol).

In a way I am glad, that finally I could learn something new. But I am already a 'dinosaur' in Windows, a hard core window platform guy.

Even during the interview I have mentioned this, that my knowledge in UNIX is almost non existence, but they said its ok, it can be learned.

 

Since there are mostly using GUI through the reflections X, usage of UNIX command is minimal.

 

How I am feeling? I am quite excited actually, to be able to learn new technology. Hopefully my brain will absorb them up like sponge.

On Superstitious..........

I never confess this to anyone, or even said it out aloud when I am all alone. But I am. I am superstitious. I guess it all started when I was very young, most probably when I was in primary school, Why I become superstitious, I can't answer that, but I can remember the beginning...

 

All my life I have been a worrier, I worry about almost everything, mostly about my school, exam, my extra-curricular activities and mostly my family.

It is very silly though, I don't know who gave me the idea, but I made up a lot of superstitious believes as I grow up. It just I fear if I stop doing it, something bad will happen to me or to people around me.

 

It is sickening, I felt my life was constrained, there were no freedom, I know and felt that I am weird than the rest, but I couldn't help it. When I think back I feel stupid on how silly I have been, but when I think even deeply, I realize that I am still the same person.

 

What kinda superstition you ask? Well, if you think of voodoo doll and animal scarify, you are wrong. It was far less complicated but much more idiotic! Gosh! What kind a miserable childhood I had!

 

Hmm will I ever change? I guess not, one thing I realize is that we really can't change the way we are, maybe we gave the perception to the surrounding people that we have changed so much, but it is mostly on how we carry ourselves and communicate. Deep inside, we are still the same child we were. Did I say 'we', well change it to 'I', this is my personal opinion, I don't this any two people are alike.

 

Again...What kinda superstition you ask? Well it is too silly and embarrassing to write. It is only for me to know and for you to never find out.

Hola form cyberjaya...

Finally I am here, well actually at has been 3 days already, but only now got the time to blog.

Well, I feel renewed, you know when you go to a new place and everything look brand new in a blurry kind a way. People you meet seem so friendly and nice (just because we have not passed any judgment on them yet, vice versa).

Compared to HP, this is much more small and close knitted community. Everybody knows each other. Office environment seemed laid back, no stress on the air (yet?)

Well, I would say, I am happy here, at this moment, but again, it is always too early to say.

The team I am joining is new, so I am the only one in the team. I am reporting to a manager in The US of A. He called me just now and had a long conversation with him. He seems very friendly and sound so young. He said not to worry, he asked to shadow my colleagues in US for few months before I can handle the cases on my own.. Few months? Well thank goodness, at least I have the time to catch up on my technical stuffs. Since been ATL in HP, my technical know how has rather been rusty.

On other note, not having to be crushed into the Komuter is big relief. And after almost 2 years, the car is MINE again! Ha ha, I am so happy.

I am also happy that they providing me with my own notebook! This mean that I don't have to buy a PC on my own.

Ok, will update more later on!

Next entry: something to do with bakery! Watch out!

My Last entry in HP...

Today is the day, my last day in HP.
Colleagues throw a farewell party for me and another guys who is leaving yesterday after work. Just ordered pizza, nothing formal. When my time to give speech, I felt overwhelmed, rasa sebak, felt sad, but life goes on...
Gave speech about normal stuffs, since those who attended are new guys, just informed them about how they can develop themselves here and a bit of my experience here, what I have learnt and bla bla...

Not sure when my next entry would be, will I be too occupied with work till no time to blog and YM? or I'll b hanging on YM all the time? Hope there is a middle ground.

LOST.
Watched the season 2 finale last nite, those LOST writers are really mentally sick twisted freaks............ and genius!!! It just amazing how the interconnect one event to another and how is everyone in the island is connected to one another before they crashed! Can't wait for season 3!!!

GYM.
Froze my membership for a month and transferred the membership from Manulife to Subang Jaya. It is nearest to home. About they are charging RM95 for admin for that!!! WTF?
I had no choice. Paid the damn money at the end.

How is life after this going to be? I am nervous.... but excited as well, new place, new environment, maybe my life would not be that boring after all, or at least for a while....

I am out of here!