Somebody please stop this madness.............

DK, CT and TZ, has become quite a famous acronyms for Malaysians all of sudden. I know, there have been countless blogs entries either condemning the lavish wedding or the one really supporting the wedding.

I, off course, all against this stupid @#*&$# wedding! WTF?

I am too mad to compose a proper sentences and paragraph, so, here in point form.

1. Do they really need to call for a press conference EVERY time new rumors surfaces? Why the being so paranoid, that they want to deny all allegations?

2. Does the press really have to print their news in front-page? Does Malaysian intelligent level hit the rock bottom? There we are, early in the morning with cup of coffee, ready to sit down with newspaper, and there goes, right in the front-page, story about DK and CT, yuck! Spoil my whole day.

3. Does the cabinet really have to discuss this in Dewan Rakyat? Of course the Ministry of Women, Family and Community Development, has a point, why TV3 should telecast the wedding of a man who left his wife and children to marry a younger girl. To of all single mothers out there, whose the husbands left them for younger girl, please do something about this. Is this the example we want to set to our children? And please DO NOT CANCEL ANY OF OUR FAV SHOW JUST FOR THE WEDDING!!!!

4. Please do not bombard us about the every stupid detail of the wedding we DO NOT care. I don't care if you want to be paraded around KLCC in kereta lembu, or in beca or on the back of a camel. Please don't start closing all the main road around KL just for the wedding, there are 'real' people out there who need to beat the rush traffic hour to go to work. Please be considerate.

5. And please, for goodness sake, do not bring out the family argument about the actual amount of hantaran money in the press. It is embarrassing!

6. And I don't understand how some people can boost around saying that everything for the wedding is sponsored? Is that something to be proud of? The rest of us used our hard earned cash form saving for the wedding, it was more meaningful, even if the wedding was not that grand. Ni tak, siap buat statement who sponsored what, siap with the pricing lagi, if it was me, I would be really embarrassed!

7. My last point is, is that necessary to spend RM4m for wedding, just because you have the money (even more than half of it was sponsored) I mean, imagine what kind of charity can be done with RM4m:

· Help the poor
· Give scholarship for poor children
· Donate to orphanage.
· Help people in war strike nations.
· Help develop young entrepreneurs.
· And much more.......

The only acronym that bring smile to my smile lately is PCD, THEY ARE HOT!

Most satisfying haircut

It would be a rare occasion if I could drive home fully satisfied after each hair-cut session. Normally, I would be driving back cursing the barber. He cut too short, not even, didn't cut in the style I asked, too rough and such. Most of them will nod their head at the beginning when I describe the way my hair should be cut, but at the middle of the session, all hell will break loose.

But last night, the hair cut I had was PERFECT! It was just the way I wanted it. My favorite type is the square/box type. Since my hair is stubborn and wavy, there is not much variation can be done. Cutting close like the crew cut work best for me.

Even I have moved to Shah Alam 6 month ago, all this while I was going to the barber in SS3 PJ, the one I've frequenting for the past 4 yrs. This barber shop is ok, but they change the barber so often that you wont get the same haircut every time you go, and they chare between RM9-11. So since I am already a Shah Alam resident, it is time for me to join the S.Alam 'jemaah'.

Last night went to this shop, in Seks U9 (not so sure which section), Pusat Perdagangan Subang Permai, Shah Alam. A small Indian Shop. Nothing fancy, only two cutting chairs. I told him, I want the square cut. He nodded knowingly (I thought, here goes again, another disastrous bad hair day for the entire month of August). I sat down, prepared for the worse. Then he started. He really took his time; he was gentle and knows what he was doing. The end result was totally amazing!!! I loved it. This is the barber I am going to after this. PERIOD!

The cream on top of the cake is he gave this neck massage at the end, that really was relieving and the cherry on top was, it cost only RM8!

Unix

Can't believe that I need to learn UNIX.

UNIX and I mix well like onion and chocolates ice cream (to borrow Simon's quote from American Idol).

In a way I am glad, that finally I could learn something new. But I am already a 'dinosaur' in Windows, a hard core window platform guy.

Even during the interview I have mentioned this, that my knowledge in UNIX is almost non existence, but they said its ok, it can be learned.

 

Since there are mostly using GUI through the reflections X, usage of UNIX command is minimal.

 

How I am feeling? I am quite excited actually, to be able to learn new technology. Hopefully my brain will absorb them up like sponge.

On Superstitious..........

I never confess this to anyone, or even said it out aloud when I am all alone. But I am. I am superstitious. I guess it all started when I was very young, most probably when I was in primary school, Why I become superstitious, I can't answer that, but I can remember the beginning...

 

All my life I have been a worrier, I worry about almost everything, mostly about my school, exam, my extra-curricular activities and mostly my family.

It is very silly though, I don't know who gave me the idea, but I made up a lot of superstitious believes as I grow up. It just I fear if I stop doing it, something bad will happen to me or to people around me.

 

It is sickening, I felt my life was constrained, there were no freedom, I know and felt that I am weird than the rest, but I couldn't help it. When I think back I feel stupid on how silly I have been, but when I think even deeply, I realize that I am still the same person.

 

What kinda superstition you ask? Well, if you think of voodoo doll and animal scarify, you are wrong. It was far less complicated but much more idiotic! Gosh! What kind a miserable childhood I had!

 

Hmm will I ever change? I guess not, one thing I realize is that we really can't change the way we are, maybe we gave the perception to the surrounding people that we have changed so much, but it is mostly on how we carry ourselves and communicate. Deep inside, we are still the same child we were. Did I say 'we', well change it to 'I', this is my personal opinion, I don't this any two people are alike.

 

Again...What kinda superstition you ask? Well it is too silly and embarrassing to write. It is only for me to know and for you to never find out.

Hola form cyberjaya...

Finally I am here, well actually at has been 3 days already, but only now got the time to blog.

Well, I feel renewed, you know when you go to a new place and everything look brand new in a blurry kind a way. People you meet seem so friendly and nice (just because we have not passed any judgment on them yet, vice versa).

Compared to HP, this is much more small and close knitted community. Everybody knows each other. Office environment seemed laid back, no stress on the air (yet?)

Well, I would say, I am happy here, at this moment, but again, it is always too early to say.

The team I am joining is new, so I am the only one in the team. I am reporting to a manager in The US of A. He called me just now and had a long conversation with him. He seems very friendly and sound so young. He said not to worry, he asked to shadow my colleagues in US for few months before I can handle the cases on my own.. Few months? Well thank goodness, at least I have the time to catch up on my technical stuffs. Since been ATL in HP, my technical know how has rather been rusty.

On other note, not having to be crushed into the Komuter is big relief. And after almost 2 years, the car is MINE again! Ha ha, I am so happy.

I am also happy that they providing me with my own notebook! This mean that I don't have to buy a PC on my own.

Ok, will update more later on!

Next entry: something to do with bakery! Watch out!

My Last entry in HP...

Today is the day, my last day in HP.
Colleagues throw a farewell party for me and another guys who is leaving yesterday after work. Just ordered pizza, nothing formal. When my time to give speech, I felt overwhelmed, rasa sebak, felt sad, but life goes on...
Gave speech about normal stuffs, since those who attended are new guys, just informed them about how they can develop themselves here and a bit of my experience here, what I have learnt and bla bla...

Not sure when my next entry would be, will I be too occupied with work till no time to blog and YM? or I'll b hanging on YM all the time? Hope there is a middle ground.

LOST.
Watched the season 2 finale last nite, those LOST writers are really mentally sick twisted freaks............ and genius!!! It just amazing how the interconnect one event to another and how is everyone in the island is connected to one another before they crashed! Can't wait for season 3!!!

GYM.
Froze my membership for a month and transferred the membership from Manulife to Subang Jaya. It is nearest to home. About they are charging RM95 for admin for that!!! WTF?
I had no choice. Paid the damn money at the end.

How is life after this going to be? I am nervous.... but excited as well, new place, new environment, maybe my life would not be that boring after all, or at least for a while....

I am out of here!

Celebrity Sightings (part ii)

It is official, when it comes to celebrities, I become a Jakun! (Part I here)

It seems that, Sarimah (a VJ) studying in Help Institutes and regularly frequents the San Francisco Cafe in HP Towers.

I seldom eat there, my first time wan on my first day in HP (because I didn't realize that there is stall at the back), second time was during fasting month, I didn't realize the time was up for buka puasa, and third time is for the farewell lunch thrown by my team lead, Edward joined by Christina.


Well, back to story, we were enjoying our lunch and suddenly Sarimah entered. I got excited, my facial expression changed, I tried to control my facial muscle, but unsuccessful. It showed, that I am a jakun when it comes to seeing celebrities in real life.

Throughout the lunch I can keep my eyes of Sarimah.... Why? is she that pretty? no so...... just so so only. But just for the one reason, that she is a celebrity! (she is not that famous anyway).

Then I heard something really interesting from Christina. During HP annual dinner, Sarimah was there (no idea who invited her) and the funny thing was, she was handing out her business card for and promoting her as "certified English language teacher" !!!! I can't believe it!
Showbiz in Malaysia must be getting really slow, VJs are starting to give out English Tuition.

Sarimah wedding picture: Moga bahagia ke anak cucu....

Personal Note: Must stop acting like a Jakun in next celebrity sightings.

Apply Phone Line.

Punye le excited last friday, sebab nak apply phone line. Since my new company requires me to have Streamyx connection (which they will pay.......bestnye!), I kena la apply fixed line dulu.

So, I took half day, (ingat TM tutup on Sats), gi sana fill up the forms and all (kejap jer, effiecience gak TM ni) aku pun gi la ke counter.

Awek kat counter check punye check....lama aku tunggu, then dia cakap, maaf encik, rumah encik tak masuk line lagi, rumah numbor ganjil, belom masuk, rumah nombor genap jer masuk line dah....

Pelik kan, awek tu pun pelik, dia bagi reference number, so that I can follow up.

Macam2 le...........

Lagi pasal kerja baru............

Dalam aku sibuk-sibuk dengan kerja baru, Alhamulillah, bini aku pun dapat kerja baru gak,
di sebuah syarikat pengeluaran kereta nasional yang terletak di Shah Alam (macam le susah sgt nak teka).

Anyway, aku rasa happy sangat sebab dia rasa happy sangat, lagi pun dah lama sangat dia nak tukar kerja, jerja sekarang ni sejak fresh grad sampai sekarang, almost 6 tahun, tapi gaji camtu jer, benefit tak seberapa and tak pernah merasa bonus, memang frust le.

But now, hopefully she will happy to go to work, but knowing my wife, she start worrying about the new job, what if this, what if that?
Once she is is she would be ok I guess.

Hmm most probably, both of us akan ke kerja baru next month around same time. Have reschedule everything; travel arrangment; makan arrangment; and ntah apa-apa lagi hidden issues that will arise.

Cyberjaya..... here I come!

Alhamdulillah, at last I got the offer letter I have been waiting for. Eventhough I didn't get the salary I asked for, but considering other benefits offered, I think this new company, has a good plan/package for the employees.

My team lead was shocked and sad when I break him the news. But he said, he respect my decision, as I need to think of my life, family and future.

This is the most difficult career choice I have made so far. When I resign form the previous job, I was overjoyed, cause I HATED it there.
Now is different story altogether. I really like it here, and I was just promoted last month to assistant Team Lead. I am really comfortable here (am in comfort zone now, more reason to leave?)
Very sad to leave, really, I meant what I wrote in the resignation I tendered (even it was a template I downloaded from net).

The job I am going to is really technical, I am going as DTS (deep technical support) as Netbackup Administrator, my job scope is really getting deeeepppppp.

In old company, I did EVERYTHING, yes including the dreaded setting up projector (to Gud Guy), here, I am more specialized, in Windows/Exchange/Backup Administration.
New company, I am specializing in Backup alone. Look like I am heading somewhere, though backup is not my cup of cake, but people force me to eat it, I will, gladly.

So, I can only Tawakal that I am choosing the right path. It is a whole new environment. Hope I can adjust my self there and I am hoping that there is a career growth there.

I have to do this to stabilize my financial, I have not much choice.

I asked a friend of mine, would you leave the current position (as lead) and accept new offer with more pay, but just an normal engineer?
He said most probably not, MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING.

It is funny, If you asked a guy with money, he will say money isn't everything, and if you ask a guy struggling in life financially, he will say, MONEY IS EVERYTHING.
I guess this varies on which side of the line we are standing.

I just don't wanna think about this stuffs anymore, I am just doing what I think right at this moment of my life, for me and my family, the rest I leave to God.

My Resignation

At long last.
_____________________________________________
From: Guzz
Sent: Friday, July 07, 2006 5:25 PM
To: xxx, xxx
Cc: xxx, xxx; xxx, xxx
Subject: My Resignation

7th July 2006



Dear xxx, xxx,

Please accept this letter as my formal notice of resignation from XXX, effective 6th August 2006.
This wasn't an easy decision, because I am grateful for the rewarding employment I've had with xxx.
The associations I've made during my employment here will truly be memorable for years to come.
Thank you very much for the opportunity to work here.

I wish you and XXX continued success.


Sincerely,
Guzz
KL T2 Trade

Cc:
xxx, xxx
xxx, xxx

GYM Comparison.....

While I was waiting for my wife to fetch me from Komuter SJ, I tool a walk to Subang Parade.

Hmmmm Celebrity Fitness?!!!! Should I?

I entered and talk to the consultant. He showed me around and explain what kinda packages they offer. Interesting..... cheaper than Fitness First. And their equipment are all new and look sophisticated. The membership consultant gave me 2 week free trial! Wow! So last Sat Morning I went for my first workout there and below are my findings (and comparison to FF)


PROs
1. The feature I like the most is they provide Towel service to all type of memberships, unlike FF!
2. All the equipment are facing the mirror, so we can watch our form while working out.
3. The free weight area is big! And they have plenty of benches.
4. They have 4 Smith Machine and all of them facing the mirror.
5. There is more weight variety in the dumbbell. And it is in the increment of 2.5 lb, unlike in FF which is in increment of 5.0lb. The dumbbell are the latest type, compact, so easier to lift.
6. There is a DJ in the house, so that the environment feel a bit lively, compared to FF which just play random songs.
7. The locker room is big, with many mirror and many hair dryer. There is guard on duty inside the locker room to guard our belongings.
8. The juice bar provide protein shakes! (off course not free la, have to pay)
9. They have many type of membership, the cheapest is RM77 per month. It is 24 month contract, you pay the lump sum of the 2 year fee in the 1st year, and you got 4 year membership (2 year free+2 year paid)
10. The trainers there look friendly. (too soon to judge)
11. Parking is free (if you park in Carrefour)
12. After training, can jalan-jalan and makan-makan in Subang Parade.

CONs

1. They don't provide free flow soft drink like in FF.
2. They don't provide plastics bags to put the wet clothes.
3. The locker don't have automated lock as in FF , we need to bring our own padlock.

So I guess, most probably I will join Celebrity Fitness and cancel with FF.
Anyway nanti dah tukar kerja, CF seems nearer to me.

P/s: been wondering, Am I a workout freak? But my body doesn't reflect that, am I just wasting my time?

I have decided...

If i stay here, I can brush up my management skills, and do not have to do technical stuffs, but the pay is low(er).
If I take the new offer, I will really go deep into technical (really specified) and the pay is higher.

The question:
Which one is important to me now?
Obviously, money!
If I am financially stable, I wont even bother applying to other places, but I really need to improve my financial.
I have no choice.
There is always doubt in me, whether I am making the right decisions.
What do you think guys, I badly need feedback in this!

Here I am again............

Here I am again, at the junction, I need to make a decision now. Which path to follow?

Hard decision, I think I am going crazy now.

Financially, I am a mess. I need to move on with my career.

Sometime I feel suffocated.

What if I took the wrong turn?

This is the moment where a simple phone call will change my life definitely....

Question is: for better or worse?

Great Expectations..........

A lot going through my mind. A lot of 'what if' questions. And then I'll start fantasizing that 'if' I have done that my life would have been like this or 'if' I can have this I could do that, and so on.

Sometimes I fantasize so detailed, that I actually felt the satisfaction of living that fantasy life. In the fact that I have an abundant time to do so doesn't help me with my problem.

Am I 'Mat Jenin', who lost out opportunity in life, while dreaming of the future that might or might not materialize?


Where is the 'big break' that everybody's talking about?

Ntah le.. Tension....

Yet another year...........

Yesterday was my birthday, yes.... but I don't try make make big fuss about it after I hit my 30s..... It is scary you know, to be in 30s, I don't know why, I am just feeling like there a lot more to accomplished in life and I am already in 30s.. sigh.... anyway, this entry is not about me pondering about meaning of life or my achievement in life (or lack of it), its about what my wife did for my birthday.

We agreed that, there would be no gift for my birthday this year since, my wife have partially chipped in for my new handphone. So nothing was planned, at most she said we go makan at Big Plate. OK la, fair enough, since I did nothing for my wife birthday this year cos we were busy moving to the new house that time.

She fetched me from work as usual yesterday, she said once reaching the house, go straight up to the room and get ready, we are going to Big Plate and DO NOT come down until I call you. So I just set in the room, prayed, dressed up nicely since we were going out and all. At about 745, my wife came up, she also got dressed, and then she blind folded me!!!! (How kinky.... keh keh keh)

She guided me down and sit me on the dinner table and untie my blindfold, And there in front of me was this....

this....

and this...........

A complete course of candle lite dinner! How romantic!

Lamb Chop

Coleslaw

Mashed Potato

Veggies

Sparkling Grape Juice

and Nachos as appetizer....

I was puzzled how she managed to cook all this in half an hour time?!!!!

Then my wife confessed that, she took half day yesterday, cooked and fetch me from work as usual......

I was speechless, this was the best surprised I had for my birthday ever...

Thanks so much dear, I really enjoyed the dinner!!!!

Thank you......Thank you......Thank you !!!!!!!!!

Syukur...........

Tak tau kenapa, kalau aku tengok orang tengah makan, especially, orang-orang kita ni tengah makan nasi, hati aku rasa sayu, rasa kesihan, rasa macam nak tengok jer orang tu makan sampai habis.

Kita rush2 bangun pagi, stuck in jam, sampai ke ofis tergopoh gapah, kena marah ngan boss, tension kerja, kekadang stress kerja bawak balik ke rumah sampai laki bini gaduh, habis tu rasa risau, kecewa sebab tak dapat promotion, jadi mangsa politik ofis (or join-in in gossipping) - Semua bende ni kita terpkasa buat untuk......... dapatkan sesuap nasi yang kita makan tu la.

So, from now on, masa makan, aku x nak rush-rush, duduk elok-elok, makan sepuasnye, susah payah kita kalau makan pun tak sempat apa guna kita kerja?

Its just Amazing isn't it?

Even we have lost hope and think that we messed our with oh life, big time!
and even when we think there is no more hope and that impossible life will take a turn to favor us,
and even when we think all the world has gone mad and people around us hate us,
and even when we think nothing left to fight for...

Our parents still sees us as they say us the day we were born, for them we are they baby, they shower us with endless love.....
They gave the simplest advice on most complicated problem in our life and IT MAKES SENSE, and IT IS THE PERFECT SOLUTION.

It is just amazing, maybe because I am not yet a dad, I am unable to imagine the love of a parents for their child, but seeing the love my parents give to all their children, I think there no love in the world greater than this.................

The problem is..............

The problem with me is, I wait for the instruction. I wait and I wait.

No... I am not lazy nor that I lack initiative, in fact I am dying to act on my instinct and logic, there is just too many things in my head that I want to execute, but I wait.

Once, I did that, I acted on my logic and instinct and took matters in my own hand. And what I got in the return? my ex-boss (read bitch) called me that I am 'big headed' and taking her job as the boss, bla bla bla.

I have to find a middle ground.

Celebrity Sighting

I was surprised to see Shamser Sidhu in Bukit Damansara Mosque last Friday.

For those who have no idea who he is, he is the Host for the Fear Factor Malaysia and also main person in Celcom adverts on TV and billboards.

Why I was Surprised?

Well, hmmmm first of all I wasn't sure he was a muslim, of course with name like that he probably a muslim, but then again he might no be one....
I was reading the Men's Health Magazine (baca free kat kedai) there is some comments he made about his lifestyle that made me belief that he wasn't a muslim.

Well, I was sitting at the back (my spot!) in the mosque, and suddenly he walked passed me, we went 2-3 shaf infront of me and start Solat Sunat!

I told my wife (she is a big fan of him) this and she said, "tak sangka pulak Shamser Sidhu tu praying type, tu la lain kali jangan buruk sangka kat orang!"

Anyway it was my mistake to be prejudice about others, jahat sungguh aku ni, macam le aku ni alim sangat!

Anyway, back to the Men's Health interview, this guy do have a good bod, guess need to fine tune my workouts to get body like his in ........... hmmm let say 2-3 months?!!!!!

Impossible? One will never know.